Looking forward…

I had to give up my swimming lessons in January 2020 when everything exploded and I can feel my fear of water dampening my soul,

but I am looking forward to the fact that I can pick up from where I left off in the future or even re-learn to conquer my fears.

I had to spend almost twice the hours doing that one thing I always hated, which is to record my voice (for my lessons),

but I am looking forward to doing the same but with acceptance of the fact that I, at least, have to listen to it only once (to check if it is ok) but it’s worse for my students 😉.

I had a mini breakdown for the first time in my teaching in the Uni when some feedback from the students became too personal to be accepted as constructive criticism,

but I am looking forward to looking at them again for the next semester and continue my work with the same passion and hoping that one day they might get my jokes and my sarcastic comments 😉.

I was amazed at how the youngsters took to the digital form of living (virtual schools, workshops, remote catch ups) etc. so easily with so many tools (Zoom, Teams, Meet etc.),

and I am looking forward for the elders to catch up with them and prove that they can mute their Zoom sessions without having to search for the button every single time.

I hadn’t traveled this year as much as I would have loved to, not just to my home country but also within the UK (except for one small one that we did in August),

but I am looking forward to exploring my city’s nooks and corners more and find those hidden gems and rubble.

I had the pleasure of indulging in my friend’s baked goodies which he experimented every week the bake off was on,

and I am looking forward to enjoying more of his baked goodies even when the bake off is off and also encourage other friends of mine who are good at baking to experiment to their hearts pleasure as I am only too glad to be their guinea pig ;).

I had to finally give up on my resolve never to buy a weighing scale as I was afraid that I would be only too obsessed with it and would end up measuring my weight every other day,

but I am looking forward to using it wisely to ensure I balance myself well on baked goodies and healthy meals.

I had been trying very hard to encourage Mr M to switch to the digital medium of books (aka using kindle) and buy only paperbacks for those which we might need forever,

and I am looking forward to buying him one as he finally came around to it close to Christmas. It is only wise to invest in it as he devours as many books as I do and we are running out of space in our home.

It is easy to look back and worry at how and what causes this shake up, feel angry at all things said and done, feel annoyed at people for their ignorance and stupidity,

but I think controlling what I can, taking pleasure in small things and small moments, being grateful and happy for the lovely people in my life, and hoping for the best in the future by doing the best I can to be part of it is the only way forward.

Wishing you all a Very Happy, Peaceful, Healthy New Year.

Not too close and yet not too far

Got to let you know how I feel

Hold my hands and walk with me

Not too close that we step on each other

Not too far to look like we are moving away from one another

Not too fast to drag me with you

Not too slow to make me drag you

With enough space to let us breathe

And enjoy the ‘us’ with considerable ease

I don’t know what the heck that is. Is it poetry? or is it prose? I don’t care. It is just an expression.

Yesterday was a pretty interesting day and the above text (let us make it generic) was the outcome of some serious discussions that happened during the lunch with my close friends, where I was telling them how I feel a relationship should be (a marital relationship I mean). What do you think?

 

 

 

Just Feel

At times our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person. Each of us has cause to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us.-Albert Schweitzer

I am sure every one of us had felt that. I am grateful to a lot of people who have always helped me out every time I needed a word,or a gesture, with or without their knowledge. I think this song could be appropriate for my current situation because I have waited for this change that is going to come. It does bring a lot of mixed feelings but I am looking forward to it (will tell you all about it later), let myself feel whatever I want to feel and let Picasso to take the wheel 😉

Here is, Bulletproof Picasso by Train, for this week’s Song Lyric Sunday.

Lyrics from A-Z Lyrics

Am I made of paper?
Cause I tear so easily
Am I made of vapor?
Because I disappear
Do I have to have a reason
For anything I feel
Just be glad I’m real
Glad I’m real
Am I real?

Are you made of lead paint?
A bulletproof Picasso
All the virgin saints
Put you here to care for me
I don’t need a reason
For anything I feel
Just be glad I say what I mean
And mean what I say to you

We don’t need a reason
For anything we feel
We don’t need a reason
Picasso’s at the wheel
So roll that top down, hell with this town
Leave our bags behind
We don’t need a reason
Cause I got you, and you got me tonight

(Cause I got you, and you got me tonight)

Did you ever see the waves break
Into a million pieces
Or stay awake
With someone who was dying
You don’t need to tell me
Anything at all
I’m just glad you’re here
Glad you’re real
Are you real?

Am I made of timber?
Cause I’m on fire
Will you remember
Tonight for very long
You don’t need to sell me
On anything at all
Just say what you mean
And mean what you say to me

We don’t need a reason
For anything we feel
We don’t need a reason
Picasso’s at the wheel
So roll that top down, hell with this town
Leave our bags behind
We don’t need a reason
Cause I got you, and you got me tonight

Amber waves of grain
Fly by highway lanes
Waited for this change
Seems like my entire life
If only the good die young
We’ll outlast everyone
For some of the things we’ve done
And we’ve just begun

We don’t need a reason
For anything we feel
We don’t need a reason
Picasso’s at the wheel
So roll that top down, hell with this town
Leave our bags behind
We don’t need a reason
Cause I got you, and you got me tonight

Woah-oh oh
Oh-oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

You got me tonight
You got me tonight
You got me
Tonight

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Posting it for this week’s Song Lyric Sunday.
So, our theme for Song Lyric Sunday is to post a song about gratitude.

Tuesday Tunes

We live in an age where …

There are somethings about which I need to write, but I need my time to consolidate on what and how I feel about it and probably take a little more time to see where things go before I pour it out. But in the mean time, there is this song I really really really liked, which is very apt for some of my feelings.

We live in an age where everything is staged
Where all we do is fake our feelings
I’ve been scared to put myself so out there
Time is running out, yeah
Need to let you know that